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Dialysis, Kidney Disease, Living life with Chronic illness

Getting Ready for the Hospital

After I hung up the phone with Chad, I turned to my son Justin and he said, “You got a kidney, didn’t you mom.” I couldn’t speak, I just shook my head yes. I can’t tell you how much my son loves me. He has prayed things for me that I didn’t even know he was worried about. He once told me that he prayed that I would only have one dialysis access until I got my kidney – and I’ve only had the one access my entire dialysis time.

Justin sprang into action and asked me what I needed. I started listing off the things Chad told me. I also told him to take the dinner out of the oven and for he and his cousin (Julian) to eat dinner before Doug got home. I then ran upstairs, fully intending to pack a bag. But I felt frozen in place. I was still in shock. I remember falling to my knees and just thanking God over and over again.

I then realized that I had every woman’s nightmare…no clean underwear to pack. For some reason that kind of threw me off and I just stood there in the middle of my bedroom. Justin walked in and asked me what I was doing and I told him that I didn’t know. He picked up my bag and basically told me to “snap out of it.” I only needed one change of clothes so I started throwing things in my bag with one hand and picked up the cordless phone with the other. I called Anne R first, who happened to be on vacation at Hershey Park. I got her voicemail and in between tears and gibberish, told her that I was on my way to Ann Arbor to get my kidney. I then called my other friend Ann, who was at the movies…I got her voicemail too. I started to think, “what’s the deal, the most important thing that’s ever happened to me is happening to me and I’m getting people’s voicemails???” I had better luck with Sue, my aunts and everyone else I called after that.

I was still standing in the middle of my bedroom when Doug walked in with the goofiest smile on his face. For a split second I felt like I was dreaming. I actually felt like I was Dorothy in the “Wizard of Oz” and I thought the room was going to start spinning around. I gave my bag to Doug and sat on the bed. And of course, Justin walks in (again) and says, “Mom, what are you doing?”

As we made our way downstairs, I asked him if he and his cousin had dinner and he told me that he had put the food in individual Tupperware bowls and that he and Julian would eat in the car on the way to the hospital and Doug could eat his once we got there. I have often asked myself where this kid came from.

I still wasn’t ready to go though. I asked the guys how I looked and I started searching for lipstick. Again, Justin said,” mom, you never wear lipstick, let’s go!”

On our way out of the door, my friend Ann and her kids were on the porch.  I believe they may have  pushed the speed limit to get  across town to give me hugs before I got on the road. At that point, the whole cell phone voicemail thing was forgiven.

As we pulled out of the parking lot, it hit me that the next time I walked through my front door, my life would be different. I was going to be different…a new Jackie.

 And then we were on our way to get the kidney that I had been waiting 5 years and 7 months for.

To be continued…


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17 thoughts on “Getting Ready for the Hospital

  1. Susan Robertson on said:

    “I have often asked myself where this kid came from.” OMG I can hear you say this! And of course, I so appreciate this Jackie-humor in the midst of my tears, as I read this installment.

    Can’t wait for more…

  2. CLAUDIA BLAKE on said:

    Even though I know how the’story’ ends—I can hardly WAIT for the next installment!!!!!!!

    You are not only an EXCELLENT writer but such an AWESOME person. Your level of faith, your spirit and your outlook on life is amazing. I don’t think you realize the impact you have on other people’s lives and how inspiring it is just to have contact with you.

    I love you and am so PROUD of you.

    Hugs and kisses to Doug and Justin.

    Aunt Claudia

    • Thank you Aunt Claudia! I think that sometimes people have a choice in terms of their attitudes – I’ve always tried to just be as positive as I can be. And I really just love my life. I know it’s pretty apparent but I have the best family and friends around me…always!

  3. Nancee on said:

    Man its a dream come true and you are so eloquent in your writing as I remember. Continue on dear friend. Continue on.

  4. Anne on said:

    Great! Justin came from Freda and Jackie and Doug. Why are you surprised LOL???

  5. Marjorie Stokes on said:

    Each part gets more exciting, I’m like a little child, can’t wait for the next part. Jackie I truly think that you should write a book about all of this. It would really help someone else who might be going through the same thing or will be. They could read about the different emotions a person would go through, before, during and afterward dealing with a kidney problem. The family loves you so much!

  6. Susan Robertson on said:

    Bored??? Not likely, my sweet stepdaughter! Like Aunt Claudia says, I may know the way it ends, but I can’t wait for your next installment. Don’t make us wait too long!

    :::: waving at Claudia, Margie, Anne and Nancee! :::: Hellooooo, Ladies!

  7. Cathy Robinson on said:

    More of a fantastic story. You are a strong woman with two very supportive men in your life. Good thing you have them. Keep up the great writing and I look forward to more of the story.

  8. Cathy Robinson on said:

    More on a fantastic story. You are a strong woman with two very supportive men in your life. Good thing you have them. Keep up the great writing and I look forward to more of the story.

  9. Cathy Robinson on said:

    Sorry, got so excited, I hit the submit button twice!!!!

  10. Girl! Stop making me cry! I admit they are happy tears. Relief tears. But still…!

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